I am so sick of following the quintessential life plan. Graduate from high school, go to college, blah blah blah. I’ve never been 100% content w/ following the ‘rulebook’ of life, & yet I continue to, but why? I’m not happy. I think this is me officially reaching my breaking point. I need something more, new, exciting, adventurous, & to forget the mold that society expects us all to fit into. I want to prove that I don’t need it to succeed. None of us do.
I know what would make me happy: To live by a body of water & beach, where snow is unheard of & I could walk to everywhere I need to be. I want to write for a living, and make a difference in as many lives as I possibly can, and live simply. Very simply. I don’t need a mansion to be happy, or a fancy car. Heck, I don’t even like driving. All I need is the sun shining, warm weather, a pen & paper, & people who love me. And music, of course, because I couldn’t get by without it. I just don’t want to follow the rules anymore. I really don’t, & I’m so sick of pretending to be okay with it.
I don’t want to quit school, but I do feel like a break would be nice. A semester or two. Just to focus on me and where I want to be and where would be the best to go as far as finishing school in a place where I will be happy to do so. Where I am now, I wake up and look out my window at all of this snow, & I just want to close my eyes and go back to bed. I literally dread going outside in this weather. I hate the bitter coldness; driving; having to bundle up ridiculously; having skin gone dry the second I step outside; the greyness all around me. I hate it all so much. I just don’t belong here, to put it simply.
Inspired by:
*No Lies, Just Love by Bright Eyes West Coast Friendship by Owl City
You’re nothing short of everything by Too Sorry for Apologies
*Keep This Dream Alive by Phone Calls From Home
& of course, the insane amount of snow today that made me break.
& Sam & Annie Persons, who went against the ‘norm’ & did what they wanted to do. I admire their bravery so much, and I aspire to do the same. Thanks you guys 
x0.Brittney
